I wish I blogged more often! Caden is growing fast...he is just over 3 months old and weighs 16 pounds. You can just see his mind developing as he figures out how to do things...he is moving his hands with more purpose and is trying to get the hang of rolling over. Sleeping is better, he is now in his crib in his nursery, and sleeps a good 7+ hours, followed by 2-3 more. Last night he slept 10 1/2 hours! 10:30 - 9 ....without a feeding! What a good baby. Yesterday's excursion to church probably wore him out.
On a sad note, Caden is on a nursing strike. A week and a half ago he decided that he wanted to only nurse the whole day...I was so happy! Then right after that he stopped - I think it co-insided with sleeping in his crib instead of next to me in his bassinet. Now he is set against it! After many tears, I have decided to come to terms with it...but I am still trying. I have learnt from my mistakes and WILL NOT make them with the next one. I let the hospital give him a bottle...and it's been downhill from there. I have not really posted about it, but it has been my biggest struggle and heartbreak. All I want it to be able to breastfeed my baby! But it does not look like it will go that way. If I had just stuck to what I wanted, instead of giving in to others, I would not be in this spot. I realize I had just had surgery, was a new mother, and had a super fussy baby, but I should have known. Next time no pacifiers, no bottles. And no letting others feed him so I could nap. Most of all, next time I'm sticking to my guns!
I am still trying different tricks, I just wish Caden did not have such a LOUD scream, because I could try longer without bursting my eardrums or disturbing the neighbours.
So now I express milk every few hours. It's gonna be tough and limiting for the next 9 months, but at least he will still be getting breast milk.
It's just so hard to explain to others why it's so upsetting, people just don't think it's a big deal!
In happier news, Lizzie took some fab pics of Caden on Sunday:
Thank you so much, I love them so!
2 comments:
We all do the best we can with what we have available. Or at least I hope most of us do ;)
I get the heartbreak...I totally understand all of it.
I am here to support you however you need...to try and help you get him back on the breast or give you plenty of "atta girls" while you pump and feed...or what ever you need. :)
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Love the pics, too!
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